So we have survived Monday, it has been kinda crazy. The girls went back to school, the oldest went with a cold, the second one with a tooth ache, and third with her new coat looking quite amazing. Everything seemed OK this morning, but shortly after a I got home things started to go south. I thought I could possibly make up some much needed sleep time, after taking my hubby to work at 4 am, but that wasn't to be for today. Thing two needed the tooth pulled, now has a giant hole in her mouth, but is feeling much better. Thing one actually survived her first day back to school by way of Ricola and Motrin, Thing three is just going with the flow.

I too did survive today, although with a migraine for a majority of the day, which causes sensitivity to light, nausea, and horrrrrrrrible pain. But I didn't listen to rock music, so I do feel as if I survived my first day of fasting. Yeah I missed the music, but I felt much more calm after listening to more relaxed and positive music. funny how that works. Looking forward to tomorrow.

New Year, New Ideas

So this year my goal, aka NYR, is to appreciate those around me more. This may seem easy, but when it is someone you don't particularly care for, it is a challenge. Oh yes, I still deal with pain everyday, but I am trying to learn to deal with that as well as still focus on my goal for this year.

At the church we attend, we are doing an awakening fast, basically for 21 days the church as a whole is fasting something in someway so we can grow closer to God. For me, I always thought that fasting is not only a matter of the heart, but also has to be a true sacrifice. Usually, it comes to me what I need to fast. One year it was a certain shopping channel. That may seem trivial, however, when you purpose in your heart to give it up, then you notice a difference. This year it is for me rock music. Ya know the cool 80's hairbands. This is a sacrifice, as my Ipod is quite loaded with music that I love.... I am purposing to listen to good christian music for the entire 21days and beyond, if I feel it necessary. Put good in, get good out.
I am truly looking forward to this new year, and it will be quite a busy one, but I know there are great things in store for my and my family.

So Sunday night, I wished I was dead. I say that because of the extreme pain I was in....moaning groaning and shaking. I am not one for meds but I finally took a Vicodin and Soma, and was able to get up. Since then I have been still really sore, and uncomfortable. Today, omg my hands are just aching...I just wanna die this is so not fair. It is so not right....I feel like I have these twisted up hands and they don't wanna work. I am hoping that tomorrow is a new and better day.....cause this is so not what I had in mind. Not counting that my kids, although they might not think so, are really ready for school to start, they are making me seriously want to put them in year round school....omg this is crazy.....MOM, I am so sorry what I put you through when I was a kid......

Finally Friday

So I have survived another week, the girls are out of school and I have spent a lot of time in the hot tub and I think that has saved me really. The only thing I am really experiencing that is bad is my hands are killing me!!! The only other thing I have noticed is that the 1st knuckle on my left index finger is VERY painful....this has been going on for about 3 weeks and it isn't gout, I just hope it isn't the beginning of arthritis....
As for the rest of the fam, we are all proud of Victoria for being picked for the 11/12 All stars in softball, as well as Daphne for the 9/1o All stars... The girls are just driving us crazy because they don't wanna do their chores or what they are told.....I am sure it is just because they are kids and it is summer.
One other thing I have decided to do this blog again, because it is important to me to document the pain, and what makes it better/worse or if it changes....